I’ve been writing my own songs a lot lately. It helps me forget a lot. Finding hobbies within myself is imporant. It takes my mind off of things. Distants myself from people.
I’ve always loved writing I use to write songs all of the time, but now it’s become something I use to cope with everything.
This song was inspired by Lolita, which emphasizes the part where Clare Quilty likes to film little girls. Please tell me what you think.
Here is the original song, Beauty Queen:
Last night I wanted love
I drank wine until I saw the sun
it was cold and bitter;
just like you
At night I seem to come alive and you do too
the city lights sparkle for nobody
just like me
I walk the streets;
12 AM
No where to run
I run to you
You asked me where I’m going
but there’s no destination
I asked you to save me
and you reply:
Smile for the camera
aren’t you happy now?
Aren’t you happy now?
Smile for that camera baby,
aren’t you happy now?
aren’t you happy now?
Every night I dress up for the men in slacks;
Put my cherry lip gloss on
sweet and pretty;
just like me
Every morning the sun shines my face
my make up is ruined
skin Pale and rough
just like him
I ask the men their favorite color
most say “blue; cause honey, it’s just like you”
Smile for the camera,
Aren’t you happy now?
Aren’t you happy now?
Smile for that camera baby,
Aren’t you happy now?
Aren’t you happy now?
And I know, I know that you,
you told me not to hurt myself
but honey don’t you know that I, I love the pain
And after he hit me he kissed me
Watched my head spin then he
Raised that lens;
And I’m alive again
I’m alive again baby
Smile for the camera,
aren’t you happy now?
Arent you happy now?
Smile for that camera baby,
aren’t you happy now?
Arent you happy now?
Posted in my life now.
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